Perry Saturn makes ends meet after a failed tour with New Japan Pro Wrestling; At the Top of this Space Elevator

 

BY JOHN BELK

Perry Saturn makes ends meet after a failed tour with New Japan Pro Wrestling

In the solar fields past Barstow

Perry collects birds. Every

morning, stimmed & unconcerned

he wears a welder’s apron & work-

boots, walks among panels 2

hours at a time scooping remains

of avian frames caught between

tower & ground. He smells of

cedar & earth, pungent body oil

& leather & salt. Each bird

is a cloud at the edge of

apocalypse—carbon-black, lit

with fire. Perry scoops them into

buckets, carries them off.

Each one, he thinks,

is a sorry metaphor.

***

Perry takes lunch on a support girder of Ivanpah

Solar Tower 2, carefully unwraps a dry turkey club

with tomato. The plant powers two telescopes &

half the golden valley. Underground are solenoids

& valves—tanks of molten salt that store the sun.

This is what a star looks like up close.

***

Perry puts the remains of a California

gull in his bucket. One of its eyes is still

knowable, its burnt breast wearing the

bulk of its trauma. For a moment he

wants to return it to the beach, dip it

in the soft Pacific & be forgiven for

breaking his mother’s heart. He shakes

the thought. In a bathroom that smells

of cooked meat & acetone he

re-ups & day-dreams of high school

& a time when he wasn’t lonely

& star dust & beach grit & flight

& some far-off future, some

other world of swirling color

& undivided light.


At the top of this space elevator

at the top of this space elevator

I look across the gentle curve of the earth

horizon brought on all fours animal spirit

& a feint of wind orgasmed

crescendo at the top of this space elevator I

release my grip & flutter a silken bow

half-moonsault a scrap of linen cloth

I drink air for breath thin-atmosphered fish

with ribboned fins feathered toward

endless fields a stream a pumpkin patch &

a clump of houses warmed at the edge of a

wood the heart unfurls like a piece of

wound wire I will surely die as

inevitable as this falling I will write

my name in fish trails in a thin October sky

but O that ground that opens before

me O that breathless flight ;


John Belk is an Assistant Professor of English at Southern Utah University where he directs the Writing Program. His poetry has recently appeared in Sugar House Review, Crab Orchard Review, Madison Review, Salt Hill, Kestrel, Worcester Review, Sport Literate, Poetry South, and Arkansas Review among others.