My Sudden Death: When Our Car Falls from the Chesapeake Bay Bridge

 
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BY JOELLEN CRAFT

boat wakes weave worms      a web for our car’s

flesh     do I help my children

escape     as they did from me

I orient     an infant root through

seed coat     my small

daughters     orient

through bay     to light

which bends to embrace     which is to form

the negative space     of what’s held

once I held each in the ocean     two paths leading from me

we rode the waves     my back to the open

clouds’     dark mysteries

on the surface’s     litany

with no break     for joy or grief’s

interstate     stitching dirt in place

isn’t there grandeur     in how small a movement can be


Joellen Craft lives on the Delmarva Peninsula with her family. Her work has recently appeared in Radar Poetry, The Penn Review, and The Collagist, who nominated her poems for a Pushcart Prize. Her chapbook THE QUARRY (2020) won L+S Press's Mid-Atlantic Chapbook Series competition. www.joellencraft.com

Process Note: I had the first half of this poem, though with longer lines and more exposition, for a few months. One day I was rereading a draft of an old poem about how grief is like an interstate, and I began working that poem into this one. In revision, the lines and caesuras tightened up so the rhythm felt like getting rolled by waves and trying to resurface between them, and the middle section emerged from the tension between that form and the earthy, destination-bound imagery of the plants and the road.